My Recovery

I had been diagnosed with CFS approximately 10 years ago. I think I got it quite mildly back then. I was constantly suffering with throat infections, tonsillitis, vertigo and ‘viruses’ which made me ache all over and my throat would swell up so badly that I could hardly talk or eat (there were even times when I thought my airways would completely block due to the swelling). Sometimes these illnesses made me so ill I was admitted into hospital. Eventually I was referred to the Infectious Diseases Clinic where I was diagnosed with CFS. I had lost one job due to my bad health but at the time of diagnosis I was working full-time for the Local Authority and they were very good about me frequently having to take time off sick. However I used to feel very bad about constantly letting my team down so in 1996 I decided to take a step down and moved within the Local Authority to a less stressful job.

At the same time as the job change I changed my lifestyle too – I decided to slow down the pace of life, I learnt how to meditate and I kept stress

levels to a minimum. My health gradually started to improve and eventually I believed the ME had gone for good. I thought the ME had left me a lot weaker than other healthy people as I still suffered more than my fair share of illnesses – I would catch every virus going around and would always be worse off than others with the same virus and I always took a lot longer to get better, but apart from that I was managing to live a normal life. In 1998 I got married and in 2000 I became a mum.

My health continued to improve and was fairly good until the end of 2002 when I was pregnant with my second child and the hospital I was due to give birth were causing me a great deal of stress. I caught a ‘flu’ type of virus in the December and it lasted until March 2003, after the delivery of my second son. In May that year we put our house up for sale and I endured another period of prolonged stress. We eventually moved out in September into rented accommodation and then into our new home a month later in the October. Just weeks later in November 2003 I thought I had the flu. With 2 small children to look after I didn’t rest like perhaps I should have done, I instead dosed myself up with Paracetamol, Ibuprofen, Aspirin etc and struggled on. This ‘flu’ didn’t clear properly and dragged on for months. At that time a friend suggested that perhaps the ME had returned but I dismissed the idea as I was sure it was just ‘some long-lasting flu’. At that time I knew very little about ME and I really thought that I no longer had it, and believed that it was impossible to catch ME again!

By March 2004 I was eventually confined to bed. I could barely walk, I could just about manage to go to the bathroom and back (approx 20 steps in total), and was in such agony; I hurt all over – every muscle and every joint was so painful I could hardly move because of the pain and although I tried all sorts of over the counter pain relief, none of them seemed to help at all. I lay there for 2 weeks and despite being so dreadfully tired I couldn’t sleep. All I could do was lay there and look at either the ceiling or the wall hoping that I’d eventually fall asleep and would wake up feeling a little better, but of course this didn’t happen. It was horrendous and I felt so isolated. I was incredibly weak and so desperately ill that I thought I was going to die. My children had to go to full-time nursery or to relatives to be looked after.

I was taken to see my GP and he was baffled by my illness. He said it could be ME but suggested I had blood tests to investigate further. I had a lot of blood tests but they all came back negative. One test came back showing that I’d had glandular fever in the past (just as it did years ago when I was diagnosed with ME by the Infectious Diseases Clinic). My GP confirmed the illness was ME. I was devastated, it felt like my whole world had been torn apart – how on earth could I be a mother when I couldn’t even look after myself.

I am extremely fortunate to have a very supportive husband and family who were now caring for me. My parents would come over to give my husband some respite. They were also trying hard to find out what alternative medicines could help me. They suggested healing and herbs. I saw a local healer which did help slightly as afterwards I was no longer confined to bed as I could manage the stairs, but I still couldn’t do much. I tried to spoon-feed my 1 year old son but I found that even this small task was too strenuous for me and I ended up lying back on the sofa again.

At the end of March I went to see a Herbalist at a well-known herbal clinic in Leicester. I was convinced that this would be my cure. I did everything that she recommended; I had complete bed rest and took the tinctures 3 times a day. I started to improve and by June I returned to my part-time job on a very part-time basis. I would have stopped working altogether but I was allowed to return on therapeutic hours working up to 6 hours a week, instead of the usual 16. I learnt how to pace and the herbal medication boosted my immune system and kept any depression away. I was now functioning at about 50%. I was able to walk for approximately 20 minutes without a break, could do a bit of shopping, cook a meal, drive the car, but couldn’t do anything too exhausting like vacuuming, ironing, run around with the children etc.

At the beginning of October I had a set back. I had two days where I didn’t rest properly and this made me feel ill again. I wasn’t as ill as I was in the March but even so I was unable to do much (I remember even struggling to take off my coat). I was feeling dreadful, my throat was swollen and I was exhausted and aching all over again. It was miserable and I was starting to doubt that herbal medicine could ever cure me. I decided to try out an aromatherapy massage to see if this would help but this just made me feel worse and I had to have more bed rest. By the end of October I was functioning back at about 50%.

I carried on with the herbal medication as I felt sure that it was helping with the symptoms and I also carried on with the pacing but in May I had another set back. This time the set back was for no apparent reason. I hadn’t been overdoing things and I was resting properly each day. I just couldn’t understand it. My dad then heard about a healer in London named Sonia who had achieved some astonishing results, so when I was feeling a bit better he took me to see her.

Sonia was really lovely and as she was concerned about the distance I was travelling to her (she explained that it would be more beneficial if I lived nearer and could visit a few times a week). Luckily my dad who drove me to see Sonia has a very comfortable car and I was able to rest during the travelling. As I couldn’t visit several times a week, Sonia ensured that I had a longer than usual session of healing (over 2 hours). Her healing was powerful and I did feel the benefits for a few days afterwards. I only saw Sonia twice as on my first visit to her she told me about an amazing lady called Professor Diana Mossop who Sonia felt certain would be able to help me. Sonia explained that all I was doing was masking the symptoms with the herbal medication and that what was needed was to pinpoint the virus and obliterate it, which she was certain Professor Mossop would be able to do. Sonia explained that Professor Mossop uses Phytobiophysics® to treat patients and although she herself had some basic training in Phytobiophysics® she felt sure my needs would be best met if I saw Professor Mossop herself.

Sonia explained that Professor Mossop lives in Jersey but has a clinic in London which she attends twice a month for two days. She gave me a leaflet with details of Professor Mossop’s website and although I was too tired when I got home, the following day I looked at the website and I thought it all looked too good to be true! As I felt that Sonia was a very genuine person, I took her advice and booked an appointment in London with Professor Mossop. I was told the appointment would cost £160 and would include all medication. When I told Sonia about the appointment on my next visit to her she was so genuinely excited for me that I started to get excited about it too!

At the end of June my dad again chauffeured me down to London. We were very excited about the appointment and as we pulled up outside the clinic I was quite nervous and I remember thinking that this could be it, my life could be totally changed, and I was so hoping that it would.

The appointment lasted for just 1 hour. Professor Mossop was so lovely and welcoming and I was soon at ease. She explained that ME wasn’t a disease; it was a blanket term for symptoms where the cause is unknown. I then put my left foot on a small metal plate and my other foot on her lap. Professor Mossop then used a small machine which measures frequency. A probe was attached to this machine with which she touched my big toe on my right foot. She explained that the body vibrates at a certain frequency as do viruses. I was informed that my energy levels were very low and she then asked me to lay my hand across several bottles at a time. If the needle on the machine went too high or too low then I had to touch each individual bottle to see which one was causing the problem. There were a lot of these bottles to touch and the whole hour was predominantly spent going through all of these. At the end of all these tests Professor Mossop found glandular fever, polio, meningitis and mercury poisoning in my system. (She also found a minor heart problem which I’d forgotten about and only remembered weeks later which amazed me as I’d had tests done at the LRI years ago and nothing was found). The meningitis and polio were due to vaccinations and the mercury poisoning was due to a leaky filling. I was advised to have the filling replaced with a white filling and in time replace the other 4 amalgam fillings (with four month intervals between each one as it would be far too dangerous to replace them all together). I was given 4 bottles of medicine and a Heartlock and Journey Analysis form (which showed dates of traumas throughout my life) for me to look at. Out of the 4 bottles of medicine 1 contained a liquid and the other 3 bottles contained pills for the viruses. I was also told to buy some supplements. I purchased a Phytobiophysics® Superfit Formula and a Phytobiophysics® Flower Formula which cost just under £30 and also some food supplements which Professor Mossop wanted me to buy from her as she had tested various brands and wanted me to have the best ones available. These were Pharma Nord Super Bio-Quinone Q10® 30mg capsules, Pharma Nord Bio-Pycnogenol® 40 mg tablets, Herbs of Grace Aller-G™ and Lifestream® Bioactive Spirulina. These were to be sent from Jersey and came to a total of £80.20 (excluding packaging and postage). I was advised to stay clear of citrus, white wine, pork and crab meat and to come back in 6 weeks. It was all very relaxed and matter of fact, and very simple.

I came out feeling extremely tired, I had been struggling to concentrate and take in all of the information she was telling me. I feel awful saying this now but at the time I felt a bit suspicious and disappointed. The appointment wasn’t what I expected. It all seemed much too simple, I’d been suffering for years with ME and here was Professor Mossop saying that it was all these other viruses causing the illness, how on earth could she diagnose this in just one hour when our so called ‘health professionals’ couldn’t in all these years. I felt very sceptical and was actually feeling quite despondent about the whole appointment. I had looked at the Heartlock and Journey Analysis form showing the dates of traumas I had experienced and at that time couldn’t make any sense of it. I was exhausted and when got back into my dad’s car I tried my hardest to sound enthusiastic about the whole thing as he had taken time out of work, driven me all the way down to London and paid for the appointment, and I didn’t want him to feel let down as he too was sure that Professor Mossop would cure me. It was very difficult trying to sound positive when I really felt inside that it had been a waste of time and money.

I waited until Friday when the supplements had arrived from Jersey before I started taking the new medication and stopped taking the herbal medicine I was using. Late afternoon I cooked a meal using a jar of sauce which I normally use, had a normal relaxing evening and went to bed. That night I woke up at about 3am with awful stomach pains. It was my IBS starting up again, so I came downstairs and took some Colofac® pills and Gaviscon. I went back to bed but was unable to sleep due to the pain. At 4am I came downstairs again and sat on the sofa. I eventually fell asleep and at 6am when my husband came downstairs with the children I returned to bed for a couple of hours. When I woke up I wondered if the sauce I used for the meal contained any of the things I had been advised to avoid. When I looked at the label on the sauce I discovered there was lemon juice in the ingredients. Obviously in the past the herbal medication had prevented such reactions as I used this same sauce on a regular basis without any problems. When I got up at 8am I was surprised at how awake I felt. Normally after a bad night I would have a set back, however I seemed to be ok. I wondered if it was due to the new medication I was taking but dismissed this idea as I was quite sure it wasn’t going to work. On the following Sunday I still felt okay, in fact slightly better than usual and when I went to bed that night it was much later than usual.

On the Monday I woke up feeling fantastic. I felt really energised and I could think clearly. My usual aches and pains had disappeared and I even looked different. I went to work for the usual few hours and was told I looked ‘radiant’ and ‘really well’. I didn’t know what to say to these comments – I thought that I couldn’t say I felt fantastic in case it didn’t last! It was amazing and I realised that it was more than a coincidence – the Mossop Philosophy was working. I couldn’t remember ever feeling so well, it was a miracle. That evening my husband and I rose our glasses to Professor Mossop and celebrated with a bottle of rosé wine. The following morning I woke feeling awful again, I couldn’t believe it. I remember thinking that I was right after all, the medicine won’t work. It was dreadful having experienced ‘life’ the day before to again feeling so unwell. About half way though that day I remembered Professor Mossop advising me to stay away from white wine, which I had forgotten about (I was told so much in that one hour’s appointment and as I was feeling so drained at the time, it was difficult to remember everything I had been told). Of course, the rosé wine contained white wine. It took a few days to get back to feeling great again and by the Friday of that same week I was again feeling fantastic.

From there I just kept on getting better and better and I was thinking about ending my pacing routine (I had cut my rest periods from 2 hours down to half an hour per day). I felt I couldn’t stop my rests completely as I was afraid of a relapse but on the fourth week of feeling good I took my sons out for the day and was unable to rest. The following Thursday I had a dental and hospital appointment and I didn’t manage to rest that day either and on the Friday we were going on holiday and I had to finish the packing which took most of the day, so I again didn’t get a chance to rest. I had now missed three days in a row of resting and I still felt good – I knew by now that this feeling great was here to stay, and just in time for my holiday! We all had a great holiday and when we got back I returned to see Professor Mossop for my follow-up appointment. My energy levels were again measured and although they weren’t as good as they should have been, they were double than on the previous visit. I told her how good I felt and she did some more tests. The tests showed that I no longer had any of the polio, meningitis or glandular fever viruses or mercury poisoning. Some rubella was found and I was given some more pills. I was also advised that I no longer needed the previous tablets prescribed and only to finish some of the supplements. I asked if I should renew any of the new medication once it was finished but was told that it wouldn’t be necessary. Professor Mossop said that I wouldn’t need to see her again regarding the ME as it wouldn’t return. She advised that I could phone her in October/November for some formulas for my family and me to keep flu viruses away and was advised to read as much as possible about nutrition and to get plenty of exercise and to enjoy my new life! This follow-up appointment lasted just half an hour and cost £80 plus just under £30 for a Phytobiophysics® Superfit Formula and a Phytobiophysics® Flower Formula. I came out of the clinic this time on cloud nine. It was a true miracle the ME had finally gone forever.

Since then my life has got better and better. I appreciate my good health in a way that I believe you can only do so once you’ve experience being so ill for so long. I now walk on average 2 miles a day which I really enjoy (even if it is raining!) and although I thought I ate well before I now eat a really good balanced organic diet.

My family and my life are now totally enriched. It is so great having my independence back and not having to rely on my husband and parents to help me with the children and household chores. I am now able to be the mother I always dreamed of being as I can now run around with my children and have a lot of fun with them – words cannot describe how good that feels.

It’s truly amazing how The Mossop Philosophy has changed my life. A strange thing happened a couple of weeks ago – both my husband and I caught a cold. Normally my husband would recover very quickly and I would stay ill for weeks and be much worse than him even though we had the same virus. This time it was different. I felt unwell for just a few days and my husband is still feeling ill over two weeks later…..miracles definitely can happen!